Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Nervous Breakdown: Day Three (morning)

It's 8:00 a.m. and I've already taken on Ativan. Still everything is bouncing around inside of me at a frantic pace. It's like my chest cavity is a bounce house and my organs are overly eager children. bounce bounce bounce, hit a wall, fall down!

This morning my shakes (now internal bounces) are accompanied by cold sweats and nausea.

What the HELL?! That's all I can say.

Good news: my child is adorable. Seeing him doesn't make me feel like running. I love him so much I could never leave.

Not as good news: despite the above, seeing him this morning made me sweat and shake uncontrollably.

I would type more but it's becoming increasingly difficult.

more later...